Friday, March 11, 2011

Random Thoughts

It's been a long week. Actually... it's been a long month. Work stress, insomnia, death, illness and depression have all touched my life in one way or another and it's felt exhausting. Thursday night I went to a prayer rally and it was a wonderful opportunity to re-center. Finally, today I was able to stop being on high-alert and rest. Even though I slept well last night, I fell asleep this afternoon and slept for a wonderful 2 1/2 hours. After I woke up... I felt like a different person. I felt like me again. I know life will continue to press in, but I am ready to face it again.

On a HAPPY note. My sister and my best friend will be here!!! It's the first time they will meet. I'm looking forward to the time away from work and the fun things we have planned. Ending in a 5k race. My friend's first race and I'm blessed to be able to run it with her.

I went to the store today and made a tasty discovery. Tostidos now make a chip with a hint of pepper jack. Mmmmmmm. I made a bean dip for my small group on Sunday night and tried some with the new chips. I don't know if I would say its clearly a pepper jack taste, but the chips are really good.

Tomorrow I have to attend a baby shower for my cousin. Showers in general are not really my thing and never have been, but lately I have found them to be even harder. I am grateful that for this one I feel none of the emotional dread because I know their struggle and journey it has taken for them to be able to have this baby. At the same time, it's still socially awkward for me and takes up several hours of a day I could be doing other things. Now, to make it somewhat worse, I have to drive out of my way to pick up my grandma and take her. Don't get me wrong, I look forward to seeing my grandma, especially since I missed Christmas. I don't like using up the little gas I have left driving extra and then having to stay until the last possible moment when I planned on checking out early to get to church. I'm sure I have the wrong attitude about it and my plans aren't always the most important.

Finally, we never know when things will change - when earthquakes or tsunamis of life will occur. No matter what I am grateful for the blessings I have today. The people who are here with me today and the choices I have the freedom to make.

1 comment:

Misty said...

you sound good. Your last paragraph sums it up... i keep telling myself that very thing...