Sunday, October 19, 2008

New Theme Song

I have a new theme song. It's Incomplete by Alanis Morissette. Not so much word for word literally but more of an overall theme of striving for something more.

"One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived and I'll be a friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I’ll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

One day, my mind will retreat,
and I'll know god and I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secure,
like the women I see on their 30th anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous and torturous
But never done

One day, I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I'll be trusting and spacious authentic and grounded and whole

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete"


Rule of thumb: There are two topics that are not to be discussed, and I assume that applies to blogs too. But I'm not one to always follow social norms so I'm going to tackle both subjects. Politics and religion. Ok, take a breath in case your heart rate increased and your defenses kicked in....

I actually can't stand poiltics, but it's not something we really can ignore especially right now with this momuntental election hanging over our heads. At least that's what the media and various camps keep saying. I do believe it's important for us as people with a choice to be informed and cast our vote.

Enter religious part of topic: I also believe that God uses governments for his purposes. And ultimately I will answer to Him for who I vote for. It's important to me.

The problem I am having now is that neither candidate really gives me much hope for the future. I won't wax political about my opinions of the candidates and the issues here. I know Obama has youth and some good ideas to bring but there is a smoothness about him that gives me a not good feeling in my gut. Almost slippery and snake-like. His beliefs do concern me. Then McCain and Palin are painted as idiots by the media and somesort of saviors by other groups. What is one to do? Vote for Ralph Nader? Hardly a very realistic option, better to just not vote at all.

So.... I found myself in bed praying for the candidates. Praying that God would show me who I should vote for. A bible verse came to mind. It's found in the 1 chapter of 1 Corinthians and it says, "...For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength. ...But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong."

Who knows what the outcome of this election will be, but God knows. I'm going to try and trust His wisdom.

Friday, October 10, 2008

The plumber and the dancer

It's an absolutely georgeous day outside. After I ate lunch I planned to go outside for a run and enjoy it. But then the maintenance man showed up to fix my dripping tub. He's been here about a half hour now and says the handles are so corroded and not on straight, so he's gonna fix me all up nice and new-like. So here I am just sitting and waiting for him to be done. I guess I could leave and let him lock up when he leaves. If I hadn't been here when he arrived, he would have simply let himself in. But since I was here, it doesn't seem right to just take off does it? Maybe I should just ask him when he returns in a minute from turning the water off.

My day at work yesterday had an interesting moment when I was at the counter with a resident and realized my hand had blood on it as I was experiencing that wonderful thing called a nose bleed. So I quickly excused myself from the customer and went into the bathroom. After a minute and it still hadn't stopped bleeding, I got someone else to help the very confused man I was assisting. I would have been thoroughly embarrassed but I don't even think the guy realized what was going on at all.

I did go to my gym class last night and as I suspected we are back to the orginal program of a total body workout, which I don't mind either (except the yoga part I can't do right) but it's not quite as fun. About 2/3 of the way into the class this woman joined in and decided to stand right next to me. The class was pretty full so there wasn't a lot of empty space. I wish I could just post a video of this woman as I fear my words will not even come close to describing how everything went. She's next to me and has missed learning the first half of the dance and now we are putting together the part we just learned with the rest starting from the top. So I moved over and behind my friend Nat, leaving this woman plenty of space while also giving myself some extra space (If I was good at judging distances I would tell you but I'm horrible so we'll just say about 6-8 ft away I was) Twenty seconds in there is a turn move that takes about 2-3 ft of space. This woman spins herself all the way over to me, almost into me, quite off balance. No matter where I moved, forward, back, sideways she kept lining herself up right next to me. I can only laugh and say this about her because God bless this woman for reminding me I'm not the only one who looks like a fool. If I actually had video footage of her I'd have to put video of myself right next to it and I don't think the world is ready for that.

The repairman said it's ok to leave, so I'm off for a walk.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008