Friday, January 15, 2010

I Quit

I guess it's about time for a new post. I was doing so well. Except the problem is I really don't have anything to say. Well, that isn't entirely true, I have a ton of stuff bouncing around in my head; it's just not stuff thats in coherent enough thought to be put into words. (or posted on this blog)

I don't normally use this space for momentary blast of emotional outbursts or unthought through sentences, but tonight this is the place that seems the most viable option. Most likely by the time I wake up tomorrow everything will have changed - usually a good night's sleep has a way of doing that. So this may even get deleted when I wake up.

I have been on a journey of sorts in the last couple weeks. A journey of understanding. A journey of trying to find answers. Tonight I am ready to quit. It seems like no matter what way I turn, I hit a road block. Does that mean I need to go back to the beginning? It feels like I've been spun in circles only to be left unbalanced to find my way.

Tonight, my feet hurt, my legs are sore, my eyes are dusty. For tonight, I'm just going to sit here on the side of this path -or maybe I'll lie on my back so I don't have to look at the road block nor the road I just walked. I'll just look up... and maybe the stars will lend some guidance.

Hope it doesn't rain.


laurette said...

Praying for you my dear friend! You are loved!

JD said...

It's amazing what a good night's sleep can do -- still looking for one, hope you found it, sweetie.

(((((((((( hugs ))))))))