Friday, February 5, 2010

Mixed Bag

I am sitting here wondering what I should write about today. Should I share what God has been teaching me? Or some of the great things I have read this week?

Today I think I am just going to share some of me. (You've been warned)

First, some of you may or may not know that I do not have a Facebook page nor a Twitter account. Nor at this time do I have any desire to. I don't have anything against either of those things, i just choose to limit my "things" to not include those. Having said that - I made it into a tweet today. As far as I know my first. In other twitter related news, I noticed on a blog I was reading someone had tweeted Josh. I am going to have to have a talk with that girl - she can't be messin' with that ;) although I may be cheating a little too...

It's strange to me how some people can so openly share things about their lives or thoughts that I would never dare to except in the deepest of trusts. Sometimes I wish I was more like that. Other times I am grateful that I am not.

I tend to be very profilic in my words, especially in writing. But in person, if I have to say something that's hard or try and explain something, often its like the words just bounce around in my head but don't seem to be in an order that's speakable. Some people find this annoying. I find it annoying when other people do it sometimes. So I'm working on - saying less in writing and more in person.

Over the last 2 months or so I have been on a journey of sorts. Kinda like doing research on my own life (I love research). Looking thru the miscroscope of the past deeper into things than I have before. Analyzing feelings, relationships, beliefs, perceptions, etc. It hasn't been easy, but I believe it's been very worth it. I am different than who I was then. And in the future I want to be better than I am now. A better daughter, a better friend, a better christian. I'm getting out of the kiddie pool of the past. I've outgrown it. And I'm moving into the deeper waters of the river.

In 2 weeks, I am going to meet some of my new friends. I am excited but at the same time I am still nervous. In a group, I am much more comfortable blending into the wallpaper and observing - in a don't speak unless addressed sort of way. Since I've themed this year "The year of so much more," I really want to be a part of the moment and not just an footnote.

In the words of Porky Pig.... That's all folks.

I'm not sure you got your money's worth on this one. Sorry no refunds.


JD said...

Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! My Tia!!!

You shared so much of your heart in this post, thank you for giving us such an open glimpse into your heart. Glad to see you sharing!!

Porky Pig? Related to Piglet?

laurette said...

First, JD, NO Porky Pig is NOT related to Piglet. You two are making me laugh out loud!

Would you believe today, I have been researching also. By no coincidence I'm sure!

I'm so looking forward to being one of those people you get to meet, exactly two weeks from today. I pray it will be a blessing for all of us.

Thank you for sharing your heart in this post. You are loved!