Saturday, April 10, 2010

Strange week to something new

It's been a strange week.

I don't even know how to put it into words. In fact, I've had a significant lack of words all around. All the landmarks I was using to tell my bearings are hidden and I've felt adrift. And yet, I know God is still very close and working on my life.

One thing this week has taught me is that I still have a long way to go. Put under enough pressure the steam will expose the cracks.

Sometimes it's just easier to shut down completely. Take a time out from life for a bit. I don't think there is anything wrong with that as long as it's temporary. But what if getting going again feels like groping in the dark for the light switch and so far you aren't having any luck?

Today started out quite cold. There was frost on the car (my sister had 3" of snow!) but it turned into a beautiful warm spring day with a bit of a breeze. I decided to go for run... it was needed. There is just something about it that allows me to clear my head and outrun all the things chasing in my mind. I stopped halfway through, laid in the sun and prayed. And now I find myself here... albeit rambling a bit, but at least talking.

The best part... you can start anew any minute.

Right now just might start something new.

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